feeling the love

first of all thank you to the many people who left congratulatory messages. it was a real pick-me-up, especially since i've been missing the hubby something bad. lemme explain the current situation; we're officially married as we've ROM-ed in Singaporean speak. however, we're not gonna live together till after the reception, which is the big wedding banquet to be held next july, if all goes well. so for the moment i'm in singapore whilst imthie's in melbourne. we're doing the phone thing, which has it's moments but can get you down at times too.

thankfully i started working almost immediately after he left which i think i owe a large part of my present sanity to. work has been unpredictable, something anyone who works with kids on a daily basis will tell you. overall i really enjoy being with the kids, who can be difficult when they wanna be but it's all forgotten when they give you a hug or one of their killer smiles. the love they so readily give you makes you wonder what the world would be like if more adults would do the same.

another thing i've been using this time to do (other than learning to cook) is to try to get back on the fitness track. though its been very slow going, i think i can finally say that i seem to be heading in that direction. it took some time for me to believe i could do it but when you just go thru the motions initially, then you realise that you're body is not that much different even though a few kilos heavier and seeing how much better you feel after, you just wanna keep on going. yes i wanna look my best for the wedding in july, but i'm not gonna starve myself or become obsessed with numbers on the scale. i wanna reign myself in because i worked really really hard to get where i am and to just become complacent and resort to old habits would be a pity. i need to make exercise and healthy eating a part of my daily routine, so i will continue them even after i join imthie in melbourne.

so what have i done so far that's inspired such a lengthy post?? nothing much really, but i'm in a positive frame of mind and it took me a while to get here. i have cut out carbs during dinner, which means i often go to bed with a slight rumble in the tummy, which strangely enough is a rather comforting feeling. and today i made my own salad, something i haven't done in ages.i've started moving again too. on friday i did 20 min on the bike. it was a short workout but i really pushed myself. then sunday and today i went for a run. sometime next week i'm gonna see if i can work shorter hours so that i can add sessions with din too. i'm taking a slower approach this time around. and giving myself snaps as i go along :)