rediscovering my pain thresholds

after much consideration i've got meself a few more sessions with my trainer din. this time around i'm gonna pay careful attention to the exercises he puts me thru. its been three sessions in and already i feel muscles i haven't in a while. lets just say i feel my chest in a whole new way. amazingly having started working out the food has begun to sort itself out too. not that its got healthier, but the portion sizes are about right. now if i can squeeze in a few more salads it'll all be dandy.


as somone who has been larger than average their whole life and who's always been reminded of that fact it seems, its somewhat confusing when u meet someone who actually likes the bits you've been trying to get rid of. for example, i never looked at my love handles with anything other than disgust but now i'm like hmmm....maybe i could live with them after all. its not that i needed affirmation about my body. who am i kidding?? i suppose on a certain level we all need affirmation. i had already reached a point where i was comfortable with my body but having someone love my err- for lack of better word -droopy bits as well just makes me wanna love em too.


oh. have i mentioned that i'm gettin married?? haha. for real too. i guess you could say i fell with my head first, then my heart...and then err other things. the mystery man's name is imthikhab but he answers to imthie. i like calling him immy, which i think makes him sound like a cat. and i certainly like my felines. for the moment we're giving the long distance thing a shot. he knows more dirty jokes than i do, which in itself is quite a feat. but its damn depressing after a few weeks honestly. as is the fact that he's two hrs ahead. when i'm just gettin into out late night chats, he's halfway in la-la land. and when he calls at 6 in the morning before leaving for work i can barely formulate words at that point, much less actually have a decent conversation. but all that being said, i do wait for his calls. but since i switched to a free incoming mobile plan i have resumed being exactly that (mobile that is). love is a very strange thing indeed.


all the mush is somewhat nauseating i know but aint appologizing. i've had my share of sadness these coupla years and am thankful to the greater powers that be for the change of scenery. here are a coupla pictures of immy and me. ta-ta till the next time loves ...