heading in the right direction

i was on the bus the other day when i happened to read a fellow commuter's t-shirt: "It's not where you came from that matters, its where you're at". well i don't know if i quite agree. how can you appreciate all that you have presently if you don't put in context to what you started with. even if you used to be better off, what hope have you of ever reverting if you do not take the time to reflect on the journey that got you to where you are. take losing weight for example. having to constantly tuck in my less-than-flat belly into my denims to keep the 'muffin-top' effect to a minimum can take its toll on one's self-confidence, but then i remember that not too long ago i used to have three 'rolls' of fat for a belly (i kid you not ppl!) my now uni-belly doesn't feel that bad.

the worst possible thing though is when you plateau. i have been stuck in the 66-65 kilo range since last december. no matter how much harder i've been pushing myself in the gym it hasn't made any difference on the scale. even the cheat meals haven't been working. during other times this is the point where my frustration would get the better of me and i would abandon my efforts because they've stopped working, knowing even as i did so i would end up right where i started-fat, depressed and worst of all disappointed with myself for lacking discipline. the thing that has kept me at it this time though is that i'm doing this for me; not because i think i repulse my family and friends, not because i think not being fat will help me fit in. just for me. and it helps that in the process i've discovered that i love exercising. who knew that the girl who always read a book while her friends were working out would someday become almost pathalogical about running herself?

i'm glad i've stuck to it. its made me happy even if my weight hasn't budged much. but guess what?? an in-body test yesterday revealed that my body fat percentage is now 27.8% while it was 33% in december. so though i weigh the same, i'm less fat and more muscle baby! so excuse me while i do a little happy dance...