overate and feel like crap

today started off pretty well. am down to 78.5kg, which means i've lost close to (0.3kg away) a total of 12kg so far. started my workout with a 15min run before i had my last kickfit session with ilham, afterwhich i really felt like just collapsing. but i didn't. instead i decided to try out the new rollerbading machine. gosh was it tough, even more so than the stairmaster i think. after ten minutes i was really huffing and puffing and my legs felt as if they were made of lead. i finally called it a day. from next week onwards i'm back to doing two cardio sessions on my own and i think i'll try to work my way up to a 40 min session on the rollerblader.

was feeling the post-workout high and more than a little rumbling in the tummy. decided to head to subway to get myself a tuna sandwich, extra veggie , mustard instead of mayo and no cheese of course. was feeling kinda full after the first half of the sandwich but i just kept eating and before i knew it i had eaten the whole thing. i didn't gobble it down or anything, i chewed and all, but i still felt quite uncomfortable afterward. and ever since i have been feeling pretty low for having had the last coupla bites or so, cos i know now that i was already stuffed.am upset to find out that my inner glutton still lurks, despite my best efforts to banish her for good.

but there are some positives i can draw from this experience:

• i ordered a relatively healthy sandwiched, and stayed away from the much-loved cheese
• i didn't order the meal, even though the cookies are divine
• even though i felt bad afterwards, i didn't try to make myself feel better with a piece of chocolate cake, as i would've done in the past
• i tried to balance the over-indulgent lunch, by having only one snack instead of the usual two
• i didn't let a cheat meal turn into a cheat day

i learnt today that satisfaction and hunger often don't go hand in hand. i was full after half the sandwich but i wasn't entirely satisfied, so i kept eating. only i never became satisfied, just uncomfortably full. maybe the next time i'll stop after eating half the sandwich and then have a bit of a cookie. maybe that'll do it. one thing's for sure tough i'm still a foodie, probably always will be. i've gotta learn to pay more attention to the signals my stomach sends me and push away(figuratively speaking) from the table.