*sniffle*

the sore throat has officially become a cold. hoping that the principal notices and gives me a coupla days off :). but come to think of it, that's like 70 bucks. so maybe not. i'm feeling slightly better than i did this morning tho. i find that a workout does that for me. so yeah it was the treadmill again today. bout 50 min at increasing inclines. at an incline of 15 my heart rate was in the 160s. which is like the same as on the stairmaster or during a slow jog. i find that wearing a knee guard during the workout lessens the pain the day after considerably. i mean the pain's still there but its the same or only slightly more than days where i haven't moved my butt any.

i realise how much i've missed a challenging workout. i really enjoy being all sweaty and short of breath. its a kind of pleasure entirely different from that of a good piece of chocolate or a great book. its a heady mixture of accomplishment and power. its a rush. i never thought i'd become one of those people who go on and on about how great exercise it. but damn. i apparently am.

met my neighbour on my way back. he was like 'wow girl u've slimmed down'. i recently watched a video of myself at what was probably my heaviest (a project for a production module during my stint in the US, where i play the host of a talkshow). i guess i must have had reverse anoerexia cos i always thought i looked halfway decent when i was probably only mildly nauseating on my best days. even my face doesn't look nearly as bloated. i weighed myself yesterday and the reading was 70.8. today it was 70.6 ! i guess having the flu is good for weight loss. maybe i've just lost a lot of water. we'll see. anyway i'm begining to like how i look in clothes. i know i'm technically still overweight and i've still got major jelly belly. but i know what i started out like. isn't it funny how other women who weigh 70 kilos or less even are seen as unfortunate and are featured as the 'before' in slimming ads and yet here i am parading my 70 kilo self in bum hugging jeans feeling- dare i say it- great...and thin, well ish at least. funny how so many things are a matter of perpective.

ok. that's as deep as i get at this hour. i've got school tomorrow.sigh. i never thought i'd say that again after graduation. hope it'll be one of those weeks that just fly by...