the bearable lightness of being...

in a little less than a week i'm one kilo lighter! booya...whatever that means. looking back i wanna belittle and berate myself for taking so manys steps backwards when i had already made so much headway and had the end target in sight. i mean i was 64kg man. now i'm trying to get back in the 60s. am 71 at the moment. but i guess now i appreciate the little benefits that come with a healthier lifestyle. i had forgotten almost how lethargic and grumpy being sedentry makes you. and i know now how important it is to watch yourself closely, especially when you think you've got the whole being healthy routine down, for that's when you can get complacent and slip up. i've learnt my lesson as painful as it's been.

caught the movie 27 dresses with az today. the funny thing was throughout the entire movie i was making little mental notes bout things from the movie that might work in my wedding. talk about being a psycho bride. today was the first day that it all got a little overwhelming for me. what i find stressful is when such a big deal is made out of something like a colour or god forbid a shade of a colour. the perfect ingredients for a tension headache. i'm gonna go make a list of all the things i need to do and list out all the ideas in my head so it doesn't feel like martha stewart's stuck in there. seriously people. elope.

sore n satisfied

have been at eating healthily and working out regularly, after a 4 month slump, for two weeks now. have almost missed the sore muscles. not to mention cooking my own food. so far not much effect on the scales but am feeling much less bloated and man oh man is it having an effect on my bowels.

on other fronts i was reminded of why i'm so in love with my husband. you get mad snaps for trying so hard to stay awake :) and it's made such a difference too. though it's something i'm not not used to yet, i'm glad that i can talk bout anything and everything with you.

like all girls my age i first fell hard and fast for heath ledger having watched ten things i hate bout you. his death is shockin. the guy's so hot that he turned me on in brokeback mountain. a pity for the cinematic world...but oh well i guess sh*t happens.

i must have thought about you a million times over. it's pathetic. and depressing. and frustrating. i hate being upset but not knowing what about exactly. i hate feeling so unlike myself; so needy; so dependent on another for my own happiness. and it's being unfair to you too. from now on i'm gonna be making me a priority as well. so i don't feel as though i spent the entire day just waiting for you. though on most days i'd say the wait was worth it, sometimes it just leaves me wanting...
maybe i'll feel differently in the morning after some carbohydrates.

still here

just dropping by to say a quick hello and that all is well. started the gym routine this week. so far so good. enjoying the sore muscles at the moment. have so much toning up to do before the wedding in july. not gonna stress about it, just gonna take it one step at a time. watching more carefully as Din fiddles with the various knobs and levers so i can do it myself later. am doing two sessions of resistance and three cardio sessions a week. don't wanna start with too much for the knee so have been doing 20 min of low impact cardio. so far no pain in the knee. hopefully it stays that way.
can't believe how quickly time is passing us by. jan's almost over. six more months. the crazy thing is that love makes all that i have to leave behind bearable...